recover4nica asked: BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD! Once you're given this award, you're supposed to paste it in the ask of 8 people who deserve it. If you break the chain nothing will happen, but it’s sweet to know someone thinks you’re beautiful inside and out. <3
Awww thank you! <3
I pass this to everyone who sees it on their dash. :D
retrieve-maggie asked: You should tell your dad about your ed. I know it is really scary, but the sooner you say something the sooner you can get better! You have an opportunity to be happy! Don't pass this up.
Thank you for sending this! It helps me remember what I really need.
One thing that’s holding me back is that if I tell him, I know that he’s going to be watching and everything, and the part of me that still desires to lose a lot of weight would be trapped because he’d *most likely* prevent me from doing so.
I don’t know. When I talk to him later today I’ll see how the conversation goes. I hate to stress him out any more than he already is…
But I’ll let you guys know if I’m able to do it. <3
mo-chairde asked: Hi sweetheart, do you have professional help? I saw a post on the Recivery tag about telling your dad. So I tried to figure out if you have real help (your mom sounds unsympathetic to your issues...). If you don't have help, please please tell your dad. If you do have help, tell your dad anyways. You deserve to feel better and need all the help you can get. You deserve it. Please reach out to him. X
I don’t have any, I’ve been on my own with recovery for about a year now (but thankfully have some very kind people on here to encourage me).
Thank you for sending this. <3 I’m awfully tempted to tell him, and I know he’d take it a lot differently than my mom would. In fact, I don’t even think he’d tell her.
Last night we were having a really good conversation, and he was telling me how he’s going to help me through stuff - un-ED related - and right when I thought there might be an opportune time to explain why I’m so stressed, I chickened out, then he ended up having to go before I could change my mind.
If we end up talking about the same things we were yesterday then I’m thinking I’ll bring it up. But I don’t know if I could just out of the blue say “I have an eating disorder” etc.
It’s ridiculous how stressful this is. :/
Anonymous asked: Have you gained any weight love? xx
I’ve gained some, yes. I’m physically in a much better place, but the weight gain’s been harder for me to deal with lately, so it’s been dropping/raising/dropping etc.
Anonymous asked: *rub rub rub* <3 Better now?
Aww, thank you! Yes, much better. <3
recoveringrhiannon asked: 7,16,21,33,46,50
7. How old were you when you learned to ride a bike?
10, I think? I was older…
16. Have you read any of the Harry Potter, Hunger Games, or Twilight series?
I have not! I’ve seen THG movie, but that’s it about those things.
21. Do you know who Kermit the frog is?
OF COURSE! It’s childhood. :D
33. If you have a nickname, what is it?
Ju! :D Sometimes Juju, but mostly Ju.
46. What flavor of tea do you enjoy?
Blueberry acai is my favorite!
50. Why do you have a tumblr?
It started as a motivator for me to unhealthily lose weight, but over time it turned into a recovery blog to help motivate me and to be able to encourage others. :)
Anonymous asked: hey, I've been following you for quite some time now and I just want to say that I'm really proud of how far you've come. You're doing so well and are an inspiration to other girls, I hope everything goes really well for you as you deserve it xxxx
This really made me tear up, I can’t tell you how much I appreciate it. You’re so incredibly kind, and I’m very flattered.
Thank you for being so supportive and giving me the encouragement to keep on going. <3
we-are-all-breaking asked: 1, 18, and 70 :)
1. Taken a picture naked?
NO. No no no. Most of you guys don’t know me that well, but if you did you’d know that I’d rather jump off a cliff before doing that. XD
18. Ditched school to do something more fun?
…maybe. :) But I don’t know if you can call it ditching because my mom knew and I can’t remember what it was but it was fun. Though I’ve kind of wanted to pull a Ferris Bueller.
70. Slept naked?
Too much nakedness! No, no I have not. I don’t think I could handle that, quite frankly.
Anonymous asked: thats so true ive been tired all weekend and i knew that before i kicked the wall i would have put a hole in it but i still did it, im just so tired and want to start fresh with my life
No I completely understand.
And you can! Tomorrow’s a new day with second chances and it’s full of possibilities. Get a good night’s sleep tonight and conquer the day. :D
Anonymous asked: Hello. Thank you for being amazing!
Thank YOU for being so sweet! <3
masksofperfectionnn asked: 5,12, 24, 32, 36 :D Hi love hope you're still feeling alright, I'm so proud of your rather BIG victories today <3
Hi! Thank you, I am. And thank you very much! I hope you’re doing well too. <3
Sorry I didn’t see this earlier:
5. What’s something you’re not looking forward to?
I’m not looking forward to deciding on a date for me to start school. I like school, but it’s really hard when I don’t feel well.
12. Is there something you would like to say to someone?
I would like to be able to initiate a conversation with someone who used to be my best friend, but that’s probably a bad idea.
24. If you receive $60 without any reason, what do you spend it on?
I’d probably either save it or keep it to use for Christmas gifts for people.
32. What are you looking forward to in the next month?
Hmm…two goals for me are to 1. write more often (because I want to have enough material to have an entire “book”) which is fun for me and 2. beating my ED one day at a time :D
36. Favorite color?
I like pink and red and blue…and sometimes gray…I can never really pick. XD
standinginthe-light-deactivated asked: And if it helps, one of my aunties who had anorexia has 2 girls, one is 19 and the other is 21, and neither of them have developed an ED :)
It does! That’s very encouraging, thank you. :D
Anonymous asked: addlepates < this person is so offensive idk ldk go read what is posted and what the photos are tagged with.
I don’t like to start bashing on anyone, but I really hate it when people do that. -.-
I understand what their meaning is, but it can be really triggering to people in bad way.
Gah. I’m sorry.
And at the top of the page, it says, “Bulimia, twice the taste, no calories.”
Excuse me, WHAT?!
den-tunnaste asked: Not anon but @, (sun), (heart), and squiggly line thing thats maybe money but its 2nd to last <3
@ Have you ever self harmed? Why?
Yes, I did once because I was sad and felt alone and like nobody cared about me. It was a cry for help that went horribly wrong.
☼ Who makes you the happiest?
My dad. He’s my best friend, and he’s always been there for me even though he lives 17 hours away. We’re really close!
♥ Have you ever fallen in love?
Nope, but I’m such a romantic so I look forward to that day. :D
§ Have you ever attempted suicide?
No, but I used to seriously consider it. I’m glad those days are behind me. :)
Anonymous asked: How old are you
16! I turned 16 earlier this month. :D